Self-Discovery

I’ve mulled over what the first post of this site should be for several years. Long before the site even existed and delayed its creation with this unnecessary deliberation. In the pursuit of perfection we often lose sight of the larger goal. To be seen is to be heard and to be heard means putting yourself out there in a way that is both intentional and revealing.

Invisibility has it place but for a long time, I’ve avoided the nature of being visible. It’s why I go to therapy to confront my problems in my own time and alone. Everything isn’t for everybody, but there are many things to take a stand for even and invite the criticism that comes with it. From our critics, we can draw strength, even understanding and push further to find the truth of a subject and clearer picture of who we become.

All my heroes could have have died on the strength of their words, but they live on because of the courage, compulsion (the calling even) and conviction to put them down into ink. It’s taken me a long time to acknowledge that same resounding ¹ call. For those of us drawn to comprehend the world through the words we write, the call to write can only be ignored for so long before it yanks you back into orbit.

Whenever and wherever that pull is taking you, I hope you follow the rhythm of where your thoughts take you. My realignment comes at the result of leaving a job recently. Which isn’t really much of a story, but I acknowledge it carries its own mental and emotional weight I sift through. It’s also a common moment of reorientation many people experience and an opportunity to pursue more meaningful ideals.

I find jobs wear me down, strip away my marketing career and you’ll find hardwood that is my creative writing looking to be restored. Sure, marketing can be creative, even restorative under the right circumstances, but until I find them, I’m going to be a good steward of my soul and build my reality. Be it career or life.

So here we are together on the first post of this new adventure. Where we go is a mystery to me as much as it is to you, assuming of course you read these posts in order and haven’t spoiled the mystery of what’s ahead. In the past I would have gotten caught up in the ambience of what could be, but to write is to act and to get these words out, I cannot ponder about the existential outcomes of what this site could become.

I carry a hard drive of thoughts defined by years of rumination and must dump them somewhere for my own peace of mind. To no one's surprise, I'm a big superhero fan and so I appreciate this icebreaker but avoid them otherwise: Would you rather have the superpower of flight or invisibility?

I have always chosen flight. I believe travel makes a person wiser, even if that distance is exploring the depths of their own emotions and vulnerability. And, being able to fly sounds uplifting. To soar through the sky with your own ability sounds light. Defying gravity or gravitas if you will, may be difficult, but the strength of rising through your own ability is freeing.

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